Life IS ironic...

So wow almost November already, oh how time is flying! So much has happened lately that I just look back and sigh.

This last weekend ended up being pretty crazy but awesome as well. Things have been talked about/resolved. I'm slowly realizing how awesome he really is. I'm slowly realizing I HAVE no choice but to take each day as it comes and not think about what will happen tomorrow. And I'm also learning with every day that everything will be okay.

I love how numerous people NEVER know what they have with someone until that someone is really gone. Like not just taking a break gone, but gone, that someone finally realized what he/she is worth and decided not to put up with your crap anymore. Yes sometimes in life we get second, third, fourth, maybe even fifth or more chances to fix something or make it right again. But there simply is a point when all those chances are gone. Those chances were not used wisely and now they are simply GONE. And then when you realized you've screwed up and you prolly won't ever get them back, instead of letting go and moving on, you make desperate attempts to find a way back into their heart. I know I've done it so I'm really not laying blame, just pointing out how ironic it really is. I just hope that eventually you take credit for what you did wrong. Realize it, don't dwell on it, and move on. Make yourself a better person because of the mistake you made. Learn from it. And then when you can fully say yep that's what I did, I can't change it, but I can accept it, all you have to do from there is move on. Don't try to make that other person look bad because of your mistake and because they finally realized that loving someone didn't mean letting them treat you like crap. Face it, you got comfortable and expected him to never leave so you dealt with him on your own time. But maybe he was hurting too, maybe his feelings are legit and matter as well, maybe just maybe you should have thought about this a month ago, then you wouldn't be where you are today. World crashing down around you? Don't forget, you may have been part of the cause.