The things you've done to me after all I've done for you...

When I think about everything that has happened between us I get so frustrated. I know I was wrong with some of the things I did. Sometimes I think back and wish I would have done some things differently. Sometimes I look back and realize some of the things I wouldn't change if I could do them again. I know deep down you are a great person and that's the person I miss. That's the person I couldn't ever get out of my head. But I'm not so sure that is the person you are right now. Which has made this so much easier. No one will ever really know what happened that night except for God, her and me. And I know I did NOTHING wrong! I wanted so badly to tell you that but I knew you'd never believe me. I knew I'd never win. I have come to realize it isn't about winning or losing. It's about saying my final words and letting it go. I know I'm horrible about just saying one thing and letting it go so I found the lyrics to this song. This is how I feel, this is all I have left to say, no longer a mention of your name unless someone else brings it up, no more trying to make sure you are doing well, no more! I has to be let go.

My final words from Gavin Mikhail's song Not Enough

I can't believe the things you said to me
Now I am not alright not well & I cannot yet tell you if
I'll survive inspite of all the hurt, lost time
`Cos I'm a million miles away inside
& I can't breathe

Just know I did not believe your lies &
And now I will not be there by your side
When all of your choices come to haunt you
The things you've done to me after all I've done for you

You left you said you were never very much in love with me
& I am not enough of everything you think you need
But I cannot believe you took for granted everytime
That I took a stand for you,
I see now you are not enough that someone for someone like me

I hoped, I prayed,
That you could some how find a way to stay for one more day,
For me, For all that we could be

But no you did not give me that right
& now I will not be there by your side
When all of your choices come to haunt you
The things you've done to me after all I've done for you

You left you said you were never very much in love with me
& I am not enough of everything you think you need
But I cannot believe you took for granted everytime
That I took a stand for you,
I see now you are not enough that someone for someone like me

Now I'm alright
I still get by
Comes as no suprise
Living without you
I am still breathing and alive,
Now that you're out of my life
I'm not giving up everything I have for you
No more I'm through
You know I'll never break again for you

You left you said you were never very much in love with me
& I am not enough of everything you think you need
But I cannot believe you took for granted everytime
That I took a stand for you,
I see now you are not enough that someone for someone like me